LILIAN - PANSEXUAL / DEMIROMANTIC - SINGLE
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lilian, the the lost soldier
"Fight me." is practically Lilian's motto. If there is anything you and him don't agree about, he will fight you. If you dare to even try to hurt someone he cares for, he will fight you. If you are against what he is for, he will fight you. Fighting just seems to be in his blood and sadly nothing else but that. Lilian used to be different, actually. He used to be a sweetheart and a daydreamer, there was a time when he couldn't even harm a fly. When he was younger he loved everything and everyone; he enjoyed to tell jokes, to smell the flowers and to braid his mother's hair. He cared for the birds in their yard and shared all the sweets he got with not only his older brother but with the whole neighborhood. He had his head in the clouds and dreamed of a bright future - until the government took everything from him - at least he claims that whatever happened is the government's fault. Now, Lilian is as cold as a stone in a frozen lake. He still cares for others but the passion of his past is gone. What's left is pure hate, mixed with sad feelings that he tries to hide and fear that sometimes takes over due his PTSD. His dreams became nightmares and Lilians only wish now is to pay back to the government and his enemies what they did to him. He is a fighter without consent - if you are not on his side, he will kill you without hesitation. But if you are, you can bet on his loyality.
Additional information
Lilian is part of the military and has been a soldier since many years. He joined as soon as he was old enough because even as a young Viscling he always wanted to serve his country. He used to be one of the best they had - he was sent away for many secret missions and never failed one of them. But as the years passed, Lilian changed. He did not cope well with all the things he saw; the nightmares came and stayed and he started to change. He would've turned out fine, maybe, if something hadn't happened: His parents died. Killed. While he was away, undercover, undergoing a secret mission again, the government, as always, promised to take care of his family - to make sure that they were save. But something happened, their cover got blown and when Lilian returned, all they could tell him was "We're sorry."
This had been Lilian's breakpoint, he didn't even attend their funeral and started to develop PTSD. Nightmares. Fear. Anger. Hatred. Depression. He used to be a very kind Viscet with a love for poetry and flowers, especially roses, but the war changed him. The only person still keeping him alive is his big brother Kealan, who is also the only one that still manages to drag a smile to Lilian's face from time to time.
Now, Lilian still serves in the army. It's his life, he always says, he doesn't want to give it away. He loves the routine it gives him and he has nothing more to lose anyway. Revenge started to grow in him since the day his parents died and Lilian wants nothing more to avange what happened. He does not only want to destroy the enemy, but the government itself, because it's them whom Lilian actually blames for the death of his parents. Even though he's acting out the humble and loyal soldier, he started a revolution. The most important thing for him, however, is making sure that his big brother is safe. He swore himself to never trust anyone else with the ones that are dear to him.
This had been Lilian's breakpoint, he didn't even attend their funeral and started to develop PTSD. Nightmares. Fear. Anger. Hatred. Depression. He used to be a very kind Viscet with a love for poetry and flowers, especially roses, but the war changed him. The only person still keeping him alive is his big brother Kealan, who is also the only one that still manages to drag a smile to Lilian's face from time to time.
Now, Lilian still serves in the army. It's his life, he always says, he doesn't want to give it away. He loves the routine it gives him and he has nothing more to lose anyway. Revenge started to grow in him since the day his parents died and Lilian wants nothing more to avange what happened. He does not only want to destroy the enemy, but the government itself, because it's them whom Lilian actually blames for the death of his parents. Even though he's acting out the humble and loyal soldier, he started a revolution. The most important thing for him, however, is making sure that his big brother is safe. He swore himself to never trust anyone else with the ones that are dear to him.
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his relationships
Kealan - owned by Squeeze
("You look ridiculous.")
Kealan is Lilian's everything, the one and only he has left. Since their parents died, the two of them stick even more together than they did before, if that is even possible. Kealan is special for Lilian in many different ways: he's his life-saver, his anchor and his shoulder to cry on. His brother is also the only Viscet that actually still can make Lilian laugh, even after all he went through.